I started a blog after reading other people's and then leaving comments for over a year. At first I was excited. I liked the fact that I could be whoever and whatever I chose to be. I liked the anonymity of it all. Who am I? Does anyone truly know? Have I given my identity away? I so wanted to be someone else through my blog but I guess in the end the truth will out.
I have never shown a picture of myself in blogland so I cannot be judged on how I look. However, I can be judged on how I write and what I choose to write about. I tend to write as I am thinking and from the heart though I do try to be careful about what I am saying so not to cause offence.
During my time in blogland I have seen blogs come and go and some even come back again. I have noticed that there are certain cliques of bloggers and I have never really enjoyed being part of a clique. At the same time I feel like an outcast for not joining in on swaps or wanting to be part of awards and tags etc. I am consumed with guilt for not wanting to take part and at the same time wanting to be popular and accepted by other bloggers.
What blog genre do I fit into? I suppose I want to be taken seriously, viewed as a person with credibility and kudos, but whatever I say on here doesn't change who I am or where I am from. I yearn for the country living 'lifestyle'. I would love to have been a business woman who 'has it all'. The truth is..... I'm a mess.
I am such small fry in the sea of bloggers and often feel as though I am swimming against the tide. I don't know what is expected of me. I don't know where 'Linden Grove's' future lies, but for now I am going to pull the plug. Game over.
I have been purposefully creating holes all week. Creating holes between clusters of trebles and creating a rather large hole in the garden. More to be revealed further down the post!
During a brief sunny spell about a week ago I decided to cut back some rather overgrown shrubs. Gizmo was happy to supervise whilst I wielded the secateurs.
The next project on 'my list' was to clear an overgrown patch of the garden that had once been a rockery housing different alpine plants. It had also been a pumpkin patch and a very pretty flowerbed at one stage. It had been in this neglected form for a while now - time to take drastic action!
On Friday my son helped me to remove the rocks that were embedded in the rockery, dig out the grass and make the area usable again. It took about 3 hours to get to this stage and filled up four huge bags of grassy clumps.
I was happy to have my helper with me and he was happy to look for treasure. After a 'back breaking' afternoon we decided to call it a day. The next day I got down to the real business of why I wanted the area cleared.
I want to create a wildlife pond.
After another three hours the pond is beginning to take shape. I need to make the shelf wider and deeper and I need to fill in a bit at the bottom. I did get carried away.
Here is the 'pond' from another angle. I still need to level it all out and bank it up on one side and then I will make use of my rockery rocks again as a hiding place for frogs, toads etc. (Sorry Hen - I think it is you that is not too fond of froggy things)! When the pond is levelled off I will add a layer of soft sand and a pond liner and maybe an old blanket sandwiched between. I then need to decide how I am going to finish of the pond edges and what plants to put in. I am really looking forward to seeing how the pond progresses over the years and I will keep you posted here.
Back to creating more holes..............................!!!
