Beaded Cross Finale Finale!

I didn't have intentions to show any more beaded crosses for a while but as that is what I have been doing I thought I would show and tell!  For the blue and gold coloured cross I added some pale yellow glass crystal beads to give some contrast, and I made a smaller cross with silver seed beads with larger silver beads to give a bit more dimension.

I really should stop making these now as I have no plan for them other than to sit in a pile of 'done' stuff! The reason for all this beading is to keep my brain active.  I have also been doing Sudoku and Logic puzzles in the evening.  My brain craves something to do and I feel so wasted being at home with no real purpose other than to  'be around'.  I seem to live my life vicariously through others and would love to have a life of my own where I am earning a wage and given some worth to what I do.

Today is wet and miserable and I am in the second week of my husband staying off work with a trapped nerve in his back.  I selfishly want the house to myself and feel under scrutiny each time I come up on to the computer.  He hasn't said anything but I know he would swap places with me any day. 

If only I could get organised and write up a plan of action for my future.  Each time I mention self employment a row ensues and again I feel worthless and incapable. 

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I see myself as a deceased old woman atop a pile of projects complete and incomplete with the local authorities stating 'she didn't know which way to turn, so she stayed put'.  I really hope that my indecision's won't be the death of me!  I'd best crack on and draw up some kind of life plan lest the choice is taken from me.

By the way, I am not depressed.  I am just exasperated.

Beaded Cross Finale

This is the finale of the glass pearl bead necklace making for now.  I think I need to experiment with some other beads and designs and maybe use some semi precious gemstones too.  Whenever I am making things I do seem to like setting up a production line!  I learn best when I repeat something over and over again.  Once I have 'mastered' what I have set out to do, I stop and move on to something else.

Pity I am not doing a craft fair this year.  I think a table set out with these designs would make quite an impact, if only to pique people's interest.

Beaded Cross

Following on from my last post, with faith and folklore in mind, I decided to make a cross shaped beaded necklace with some glass pearls that I had been looking to use.  I really enjoyed the process of bead weaving and although simple in design, I think the look is very effective.

For some time I have been wanting to make jewellery with a purpose or a meaning attached.  Maybe I have found my niche? 

Cross

This is a first prototype of a cross pendant I have been working on.  Although I am not a religious person as I am opposed to following enforced doctrines, I find that I am quite spiritual and more so as I get older.  The pendant is made from genuine freshwater rice pearls and copper wire.  Because the pearls are natural they will not be prone to scratching as would glass pearls. I had no real plan when I set out to make the pendant but as I look at it I see the tightly bound wire as a representation of being bound to a faith. 

I have been feeling unsettled and frustrated these past few days.  Already 2 weeks into the new year and I feel I am lagging behind.  I have received my herbs to make my herbal pillows but lack the motivation to do anything with them.  I also have a lovely collection of gemstones with which to make jewellery but feel frozen with the expectation of failure if I try to make anything.  Hopefully this feeling will pass shortly and I will get my act together.