At the moment I am going through a bit of a wobble. I don't know which path to take and quite what to do with myself. I have a husband and an exuberant teenager (who'd a thought?) so communicating is something I have to do.
I just wish I could stay silent for a brief while and not have a role to play or certain tasks to perform.
The carefree days of imagining my future are wrapped in the cobwebs of my past. I now just need some time alone to think about what I want to do in the years ahead and figure out a plan on how to get there.
What about your gardening Simone, you were really loving it!
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Hi Vivienne, I do enjoy gardening and many other hobbies too but I have some deep rooted (a gardening link there!) feelings of disatisfaction that I can't shake off. Maybe I am just going through a mid life crisis?!!!
DeleteI remember the days of having a teenager at home and I found that for me not trying to make too many decisions and plans just living life one day at a time worked best - indeed was all I could manage! Later when said teenager has left home then you will have time and peace in which to decide where to go although I have always found that just letting it be seems to work well and one day you'll look back and realise your life has turned out just fine anyway - I did! Walking, gardening and similar past times help too - it is too easy to try too hard when what is needed is to just "let go and let God". Good luck - I hope life turns out fine for you in the end.
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean about sometimes just wanting the solitude of your own company. I expect it isn't practical to go away for a couple of days and just walk and think but you can perhaps set aside some time just to sit and relax and be still enough to empty your mind of all those cobwebs. Take carexx
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