Monday, 17 November 2014

A Walk in the Park

In an attempt to keep a positive mental attitude and to prevent my body from turning into a blob of jelly I have been having daily walks around the local area.  My walk in the park today was not the most desirable of experiences what with people letting their dogs of their leashes to terrorise other smaller dogs, dubious looking characters using the outdoor gym and gulls screeching at an ear piercing pitch.  I hurriedly walked around the park avoiding the outdoor gym, flapping birds and dog walkers to the refuge of home.  I was hoping that a walk outside would give me some respite from the anxiety I was feeling but it seemed to make me even more nervous and on edge.

Things that wouldn't normally deserve comment become magnified when one senses they are losing control of certain situations.  There is very little in my life that I am able to control at the moment and no matter how much positive thinking I do, there is little I can do to change things until my circumstances change.  I am sorry to be cryptic here but the personal things going on in my life are probably better left unsaid.

* I am feeling much better today.  The sun is trying to peek through and I am well rested after a good night's sleep.  One day problems seem insurmountable and other days things don't matter quite so much so much.  I will be returning to the park later today. :-)

Thursday, 13 November 2014

Face

I sketched this face for my personal journal.  I don't know who she is.  I think she has sad eyes despite her upturned lips suggesting otherwise.

Monday, 10 November 2014

The Universe Does Listen?

I've been giving myself a hard time recently.  I really do not live up to my expectations.  There are so many areas of my life where I feel I have fell short and I now realise that there is no-one to blame but myself.  Often when I am at my lowest point, something will happen to help me change my thought process which so happened  this weekend when I listened to two motivational speakers on Super Soul Sunday on TLC.  The speakers were Bishop T D Jakes and Deepak Chopra.  I listened intently to what they were saying and really did feel uplifted at the end of the 'pep' talk.

The thing that stuck most in my mind from Bishop Jakes was 'you are where you are because of the thoughts you think' and from Deepak Chopra ' what the caterpillar thought was the end of the World was the birth of a butterfly'.

From now on I really am going to try and change my thought pattern.  It has taken years to build up a negative image of myself so I guess it will take time to start believing in my self worth.

As I have been writing this and leaning forward to read the writing on the screen (I am typing on a big old desktop computer)  the flame from the image of the candle has got increasingly hot forcing me to sit back.  How weird is that? Can you feel the heat from it too?!!!

* just in case people think I have finally 'lost it' I know that I can't really feel heat from the candle on the screen but it certainly warmed me up just looking at it!

Friday, 7 November 2014

Seven Day Journal Page Challenge

I've been taking part in the 7 background pages in 7 days workshop over at Jennibellie's Studio. 
Today is my sixth day.  The pages have been built up in the following way;

day 1 - stick down paper
day 2 - add paint (I used acrylic)
day 3 - add marker pens
day 4 - use stencils
day 5 - add collage items (I used reproduction Victorian  scraps)
day 6 - use rubber stamps
day 7 - still to be decided but I will probably use water colour pencils.

This challenge has taken me right away from my comfort zone using materials that I am not totally confident with. By day 2, I was dismayed at how the pages looked and by day 4 wanted to throw the whole lot away!  After I used the collage items it seemed to bring things back into balance for me again.  I have no idea what the plan for these background pages is as yet.  I am glad that I continued with the challenge and am quite pleased with my first proper attempt with mixed media.

Saturday, 1 November 2014

Sweetness and Light

Today I wanted to unburden my thoughts over the pages of my blog but decided instead, to use some old fashioned restraint on my innermost thoughts. For today I am going to try to keep this page sweetness and light much like the chocolate dipped marshmallows you can see above.

To my mind I am a highly emotional person and find it hard to keep what I am feeling hidden away.  I know that I need to find an outlet for all this and think I have found the answer; which is creative, personal journaling.

I have been thinking about journaling for a while now but felt intimidated by all the fantastic journals I have seen on line and in books. After discovering a wonderful on line course, full of like minded souls I am ready to take the plunge.  I have never attempted journaling before so this is all a whole new experience for me and a different way to express myself with creative media.  I am sure that I will share some of my work with you as I proceed through the course.

Oh, I forgot to say 'Happy November'!  I am off to devour a marshmallow mountain!

* The free workshops I am taking part in can be found at Jennibellie Studio.

Wednesday, 29 October 2014

Trash or Treasure?

I recently bought this bag of 'bling' or bag of trash depending on your viewpoint.   My reason for purchasing was I thought that I could be inspired by all the different sparkly bits and pieces but now I just feel a fool for buying without having a purpose for it.  Most of the items are bits of broken jewellery but there are a few better quality items among the mix.

Some of the pieces could be used to decorate a journal or cards perhaps.  Any Ideas for using up this 'treasure' would be much appreciated.  Also, hints and tips on how to avoid impulse buys!!!

Saturday, 25 October 2014

Reflective

I have been thinking rather than doing this week.  Illness has slowed me down and forced me to put otherwise hasty actions on hold.  I have lots of things I want to do but a flaw in my make up thinks that everything has to be done and achieved now!  I should slow burn like the candle rather than ignite with the impact of a torched firework factory.

Being mindful of slowing down, there are some little treats I have lined up for myself this week.  Firstly I want to read  Thomas Hardy's Under the Greenwood Tree, search for some things I have in mind in the charity shops and if the mood takes me, I may assemble some jewellery.  No big plans, just some gentle ways back onto the wiggly path I am trying to follow.

For those of you not familiar with Hardy's work I leave you with the first paragraph of Under the Greenwood Tree written in 1872:

'To dwellers in a wood almost every species of tree has its voice as well as its feature.  At the passing of the breeze the fir-trees sob and moan no less distinctly than they rock; the holly whistles as it battles with itself; the ash hisses amid its quiverings; the beech rustles while its flat boughs rise and fall.  And winter, which modifies the note of such trees as shed their leaves, does not destroy its individuality.'

Ah, Mr Hardy, you have such a way with words.