I started a blog after reading other people's and then leaving comments for over a year. At first I was excited. I liked the fact that I could be whoever and whatever I chose to be. I liked the anonymity of it all. Who am I? Does anyone truly know? Have I given my identity away? I so wanted to be someone else through my blog but I guess in the end the truth will out.
I have never shown a picture of myself in blogland so I cannot be judged on how I look. However, I can be judged on how I write and what I choose to write about. I tend to write as I am thinking and from the heart though I do try to be careful about what I am saying so not to cause offence.
During my time in blogland I have seen blogs come and go and some even come back again. I have noticed that there are certain cliques of bloggers and I have never really enjoyed being part of a clique. At the same time I feel like an outcast for not joining in on swaps or wanting to be part of awards and tags etc. I am consumed with guilt for not wanting to take part and at the same time wanting to be popular and accepted by other bloggers.
What blog genre do I fit into? I suppose I want to be taken seriously, viewed as a person with credibility and kudos, but whatever I say on here doesn't change who I am or where I am from. I yearn for the country living 'lifestyle'. I would love to have been a business woman who 'has it all'. The truth is..... I'm a mess.
I am such small fry in the sea of bloggers and often feel as though I am swimming against the tide. I don't know what is expected of me. I don't know where 'Linden Grove's' future lies, but for now I am going to pull the plug. Game over.