I have been doing a lot of soul searching for a long time. I ask myself the question 'what truly is my heart's desire? ' I am no nearer reaching the answer to my quest now, then when I first posed the question. It saddens me that I am most likely to pass through this World without ever finding true purpose or meaning for my life.
I have always been morose even as a child and I spend hours backtracking to find out the source of my sadness. Maybe sad is me?
What makes me happy? I can't even answer that question. I try to busy myself with creative pursuits as a detraction to looking inwardly. I don't even think that creating is my heart's desire. Cream, heart shaped ivy leaves shown above are desirable; but not my heart's desire.