Wednesday, 6 March 2013

Spent


As the daffodil above, I am spent.  Disappointment after disappointment.  How much can a person endure?  I recently had an experience that knocked me for six (whatever that means), and have been unable to bounce back.  Embarrassingly, I walk around with my eyes brimful of water and the tears can start to overflow at anytime and anywhere, and I don't have the ability to control  it. If there is such a thing as an afterlife I will be surely be coming back as a watering can, a watery receptacle, but at least one that has a purpose.

Hopefully this is just a blip and as the weather improves, so will my somewhat fragile state of mind. I have a major Birthday coming up and I think that has heightened my sensitivity to the things going on in my life.  I also have a major milestone coming up in the amount of blog posts I have written over the years.

Blogging is a major part of my life now.  An on line diary for the World to see.  An ordinary person finding her ordinary life an uphill struggle and exposing her vulnerabilities to the Universe. 

Evolve was my word choice for 2013.  I think Endure is more appropriate now.

*Comments are now back on.

4 comments:

Rose Fern said...

Οh, I do feel for you Simone...I can see the state you're in..and the birthday..oh! The worst! I was exactly like that throughout January.Awful! What helped me was to make new plans and start a new activity (dancing)which put things in a different and more optimistic perspective!
However, I thinkg it's a good sign that you can make jokes about it, at least...
Hope you'll feel better soon!

Toffeeapple said...

Simone my dear, if you are feeling that fragile you need help, not necessarily medical but perhaps someone to talk too? Don't suffer alone.

Sending hugs...

greenrabbitdesigns said...

No, no Simone, your word is still evolve, as you say this is a blip!! Come on chin up and don't worry about that birthday it's only a number!
V xxx

Paula said...

I don't know what to say that would make you feel better so just sending you a warm virtual hug instead.