Saturday, 10 February 2018
Musings and a Carrot Cake
I have been miserable since returning to work after the Christmas break. I have kept quiet about my job on the blog and tried to be upbeat and positive but sometimes there is no hiding from the true way we are feeling. Although I am now earning a wage again the thought of staying in this line of work until my retirement sends me into a blind panic. When I am feeling low I reach for something sweet: a couple of squares of chocolate, a small bar of chocolate, a larger bar of chocolate.......... a sweet tooth and a sad soul is never satiated no matter how much of the sweet stuff is consumed.
There is a culture of bullying in this particular workplace. People that have worked here for years rule the roost. There is no such thing as 'all staff treated equally 'and 'every member of staff matters' which are written up and displayed on notice boards. I find myself isolated, eating alone at lunch break, and having nothing in common with my colleagues. I have tried to engage with them and know a lot about their lives as I have shown an interest. However they no nothing of me and my life because they couldn't give a s**t.
Anyway. Today I baked a sugar laden carrot cake smothered in a sweet cream cheese topping. I will probably hate myself next week after eating it, but thank goodness I still attend my fitness class.