Thursday, 16 August 2012
Yesterday I did my volunteering session up at the vineyard. We had many failed crops this year and the crops that are doing well we have found difficult to manage. 'Bud rubbing' should have been completed back in May but we are so behind that we are 'bud rubbing' still which now means pruning 3 foot long branches as opposed to rubbing off tiny little shoots. My voluntary work has lost some of its appeal. I can't quite figure out why. I don't think it has changed much but maybe I have? Maybe I am just sick and tired of what I see as a string of failures.
I willed myself out of the inertia for a brief spell yesterday when I made some blackberry jelly. 2lbs of blackberries and 1lb of sugar yielded just one jar. It had better taste good!!!
As I sit and type this I can hear someone using a chainsaw in a garden at the back of the house, at the front of the house council workers are using a pneumatic drill. Constant noise surrounds me and I just want some peace and quiet. I think I will go for a long walk later. I need time to think without the distractions. I need some clarity of thought. I will return with my 'happy hat' and leave the sad mask behind.