With hindsight, I feel it was a little irresponsible of me to put out such a negative post yesterday but that was how I felt at the time. Thank you for your valued comments. I don't think that counselling is the answer for me. I don't want to be paying someone to sit and listen to me. I want someone to inspire me, poke me in the ribs and motivate me into action! I am not looking for sympathy but for guidance. I am too much of a dreamer and an idealist and I need someone who can bring me down to earth in a positive way. I also seek a bit of fun in my life. Things have been far too heavy over the last few years and I seek lightness and joy!
I will try to keep my negative thoughts on here down to a minimum but can't guarantee that they won't pop up from time to time. I realise that I am like everybody else and that we all have our trials and tribulations in life but one difference is that we all have different thresholds and coping mechanisms. Unfortunately my threshold for handling disappointment is very low.
I must try harder to hold on to all that is good in my life. Yesterday's highlight was feeding surplus pears to the piglets up at the farm. They were such a joy to watch as they scrabbled about, pushing down their snouts to retrieve the pears that were getting embedded in the mud. One little piglet was running around showing off the two pears clamped in his mouth - nobody was getting those off of him!