I really should stop making these now as I have no plan for them other than to sit in a pile of 'done' stuff! The reason for all this beading is to keep my brain active. I have also been doing Sudoku and Logic puzzles in the evening. My brain craves something to do and I feel so wasted being at home with no real purpose other than to 'be around'. I seem to live my life vicariously through others and would love to have a life of my own where I am earning a wage and given some worth to what I do.
Today is wet and miserable and I am in the second week of my husband staying off work with a trapped nerve in his back. I selfishly want the house to myself and feel under scrutiny each time I come up on to the computer. He hasn't said anything but I know he would swap places with me any day.
If only I could get organised and write up a plan of action for my future. Each time I mention self employment a row ensues and again I feel worthless and incapable.
I see myself as a deceased old woman atop a pile of projects complete and incomplete with the local authorities stating 'she didn't know which way to turn, so she stayed put'. I really hope that my indecision's won't be the death of me! I'd best crack on and draw up some kind of life plan lest the choice is taken from me.
By the way, I am not depressed. I am just exasperated.