Grape Harvest

Yesterday was the very first harvest of grapes at the vineyard.  Enough yellow green Ortega grapes to make around 200 bottles of wine and one crate of rogue black grapes that were inadvertently planted in the wrong place.  I've not been to the vineyard for a couple of months so it was a nice surprise to find bunches of grapes among the vines.

I have been in a strange mood recently.  I don't know if having a cold for so many weeks has made me over sensitive but I have been getting far too emotional about things that shouldn't really matter.  In the real World I do not have a confidante and life can be a lonely struggle when you are misunderstood and have nobody to talk things over with.. Hopefully this is just a passing phase and I will be able to look at things more objectively over the coming days/weeks. 

Next week I will be attending a course on an introduction to business for women.  Maybe this will be the catalyst I need to stop pussyfooting around and actually focus on starting a business.  One way or another, I seriously need to start to generate an income rather than relying on fresh air and my husbands generosity to keep me going.

Footnote: volunteering may be a virtuous act but it does not provide food for the table (unless you pilfer a few grapes)!

Angels

I don't believe in Angels.  Perhaps I should, but I can't pretend.  I do believe in the essence of spirit though be it good or bad.  I feel I have been tainted by a mystical 'unknown' this week.  I have so much self doubt and when knocked back the little voices in my head whisper 'you're not good enough' 'you're not worth it' and if I was in a more vulnerable state I would believe those voices.

Fortunately, I recognise that the voices are ingrained in me from childhood and I can choose to ignore them and carry on regardless.  So with my adult head on I venture forth with good spirits to guide me.

Edited: I know I said a couple of posts ago that I was going to be less despondent and solemn but I guess I have reverted to type.   Oh well,  c'est la vie!

Edited again!  Since typing this post earlier today, and feeling very low this evening, the word 'Angel' has been popping up all over the place.   Maybe they are there all the time and we just have to open our hearts and minds and let them in.