Alone Again ..............................Naturally
My insecurities have gotten hold of me again. I can quite easily bumble along through life and then out of the blue self doubt sets in. I like to think that I come across as an amiable person through my blog and in my 'real' life too. Something is not quite right though. I don't seem to be able to form 'friendships' as other bloggers seem to be able to. People that used to comment on here or email me no longer do so even when I still support them on their blogs, yet I know they are still around because I see the comments that they leave on other people's blogs. I understand if they no longer find what I say interesting (maybe they never did) but it makes me wonder if I have said or done something to offend them. I hope not.
I feel very much like the buttercup above on the left. The one on the outside whilst everybody else is grouped together on the right. Maybe I detach myself purposely? In some aspects this is true. When I am alone or feeling melancholy I tend to produce better art, better poetry, deeper thoughts. Today I am feeling very isolated. It may be a good time to dig out the paints and see what happens.